I was in that slightly unreal state of nearly drifting asleep, warm and comfy.
When I became aware of a conversation rumbling on in the background. I surfaced from my dozy state, my eyes still closed but my ears awake and listening..... nothing. Seemed all quiet. I managed to squint at the clock and saw it was 11.30pm (early night for me but I was tired so *yay for me getting to bed before midnight*)
There it was again - that conversation - still with my eyes closed, by ears on high alert I listened......
Then I realised where the sound was coming from.... my .... wide awake.... chatty ..... chatty.... brain.
Brain: Alex and Darron and Shameema, who were the others? (1)
Brain: If I walk over to Youngest this afternoon, which route shall I take ? Hmmm (2)
Brain: I need to start at 9am tomorrow, Alex and Darron and Shameema, forgotten the others' names.
Me: what is going on?
Brain: can you remember their names?
Brain: what is the weather tomorrow, do you think I can get a good walk? Alex, Darron, Shameema and and and???
Brain: I could look it up tomorrow - or you could get up and look it up now!
I turn over, to get into a super comfy position to see if this soothes my busy brain..... nope.
Brain: I will have to look up their names, if I walk over to the sheep field and down the long gravel track, I could cross over to the rec.... wonder how long that would take?
Brain: What if I extend the walk along the route down to the river....?
Brain: HAHAHAHAH! look at the clock - I dare yah!
Me: (fighting temptation to sneak a peak) Nope.
Brain: tra la la la, Alex, Darron and Shameema, walking, sheep, river, tra la lalalala
Me: Right! That's It! I can't SLEEP!
I get up with a very gentle flourish (so not to wake Himself) and flounce (quietly) out of the bedroom and storm (on tip toes) down stairs in a dramatic (not) way to put the kettle on and shut.my.chatty.chatty.brain UP!
The cats look at me as I enter the kitchen - one with a squished up sleepy kitten face (jealous - much) and the other through the catflap - both seem bemused at my state.
Curled up on the settee with a book and a blanket, I see the time - 12.45 - hmmm, not too late, I can drink this tea, gently calm my happy chatty brain to a sleepy state. I wondered why it was so full of joy de vivre and bordering on garrulous but the lure of a warm brew and a snuggly cat soon made me forget and quietly read my book for a little while. (3)
All seemed quiet, so I shut off the lights, left the cat sleeping in my temporary settee-nest and tiptoed back to a cold bed - how long had I been gone? No - shshshshs don't think, just sleep.
Head on pillow, eyes sandpaper dry I felt relaxed and could feel the bed warming up - when....
Me: Yeah gods - are you still trying to remember all the names?
Brain: Yup - can you remember any?
Brain: hmmm. Ok, will look them up tomorrow.
Brain: Did we agree on our walk tomorrow?
Brain: How about if we go up the cobbles, down Claire's field, through the chicken farm, up the track to the lamb field....
Brain: then up to Germany farm to the track, down the track to mucky farm, through the next two fields then....
Me: will you shut the **** up
Silence. I lay quietly, feeling soothed, relieved that finally my brain had run out of steam and ....
Brain: .....down the track, to mucky farm, next two fields then depending on time, either through the village down to the nature reserve or along the farm to the river to the nature reserve....
Me: Purleeeese will you shut up
Brain: look at the time
Brain: I dare you
Me: (whimpering) nooooooooooooooooooo
Me - weakened by lack of sleep .... oh no - 3am
This morning I have come to the conclusion that my brain behaved like a persistent toddler last night, I am now presently tip toeing around coz it is still sleepy while I am up and having to be adult - I don't want to adult today. Humpfff.
1. Alex, Darron and Natalie, Elaine, Tony, Josh and Felix - Race around the World
2. #walk1000miles challenge
3. Reading - Wild Signs and Star Paths
Would you like to see a photo from yesterday's walk? I would - to soothe my jaggered nerves and tired brain .... good...